Scratch That Last Blog Title.... My Sucky Month!!

So we had to return the Toyota TWICE after they already kept it for one week rather than the 3 business days they promised.  The second time was because the parking brake would not work.  In the midst of all of that we had our Honda worked on, too.  We got new struts, new timing belt, and four new tires.  (Bye-bye tax return!)  While we were in Vegas that weekend, Raul noticed wires poking out of one of the brand new tires.  However, when we got home, I was still so stressed out from having to deal with the other garage that I waited until things settled down before calling Honda.  Today I took the car into Honda and told the service writer in passing that the strut was really noisy after he told me they would take care of the tire.  Fast forward a few hours... he left a message on my voicemail saying that we must have hit a bump or something on the road and that our freaking rack and pinion is damaged!  We just paid $847 to have the rack and pinion replaced on the Toyota along with all the other repairs and replacements on both cars.  We spent a total of about $3,600 on both cars and now we need to spend another almost $1,000????  Complete and utter bullshit!  I believe the mechanics damaged/broke the rack and pinion changing out the struts.

I am so stressed out by all this that today I tried to revoke my registration for the random drawing for the Nike Women's Marathon in October.  It's $190 for the entry and the shuttle tickets for Raul and the boys to get to and from the finish line.  I don't know if they will let me withdraw.  If they don't, I hope I am not one of the randomly selected entrants because it is non-transferable.

I have too much going on to plan/train for a marathon.  I can't believe I ever thought I could swing it.

And I am so scatter-brained right now from the stress that I just walked out of physical therapy today after finishing my exercises without realizing I completely forgot the icing and stim for my leg... and now it hurts.  I even went back in to get some things I forgot and still didn't realize I forgot the last portion of my treatment.  I forgot to mention I jumped out of the car and walked the remaining half mile home because I was so on edge that I wanted to be by myself.  I think that may have caused a little of the pain, too.

I am so, so, so stressed out right now. I can't deal with anything more.  Jonah has been a nightmare for a while now because we took him off his medicine, and I have so much anxiety about even starting his homeschooling lessons because I don't want to deal with his meltdowns.  Aidan has been testing the limits with us as he approaches the terrible twos.  Raul works almost every day.

What triggered my slide into negativity was a letter I got in the mail.  Consciously I know I shouldn't be this upset about it, but I am.  The letter was from my credit card company.  They lowered my credit limit for the second time in less than six months.  I pay my bill every month.  I pay all my bills every month and on time.  The rationale they used this time was the same as last time.  Last time I called to dispute it and they told me I needed to contact Experian because their decision was based on what Experian reported to them.  Experian reported that I have "too few accounts paid as agreed," which is complete and utter bullshit because I pay all my bills on time and I almost always pay more than what is due, if not the entire balance.  And I have dealt with this kind of thing before.  I had to sue last time, and I just don't have the energy to deal with this all over again.  So now when anything that involves money comes up, I lose it.  This is my major trigger.  Money stresses me out more than anything.  But I was already maxed out on stress before this came up.  Now it's just over the top, boiling over madness.